[It's really just a foolish idea anyway, so maybe it doesn't matter if it doesn't stay between them.]
You just said you wanted him to be happy in the end. I want that too, but despite how much I hate this place and how much crap it throws at us... I think Luceti is the only place where that can happen. Simply because Luceti is the only place that guarantees us an "end".
I don't know what death is to you, but we can actually die, the problem is that we don't remain dead for long. Soon enough our consciousness returns as well as our bodies and it's no different from having gone to sleep, pain suffered aside. This place isn't our home, our world and whatever memories we make here, whatever feelings we have, whatever thoughts we get... Everything is going to vanish, you know? As soon as we are sent back, everything will leave us, it will vanish and maybe lost forever. For both Marco and me, I think that's the closest we can get to dying. Because even if we will return to our worlds and continue living there, the "us" that were here, the Marco that met and loved you, the one that called me "phoenix-bro", will be gone and there are high chances of him never returning even if he's sent back here.
What I mean to say is that... Here he can meet new people, make new friends and still have a good chance of seeing Ace and pops and everyone else he lost back home. He can be with them again even if it's just for one more day, it will still be an extra day that he could never have anyway. And in that aspect it won't be different than being back home, sure, there it will take longer for people to leave his side and go where he can't reach them. But it will still happen. You could say that this place presents what our social life will be back at our worlds in a fast-forward pace.
I think that if even with that he still manages to be happy, if he manages to be here for years, even if it's trapped and subjected to this crap, one day everyone will be freed, everyone will be sent back home and then he will "die". And if he managed to be happy, to have enough happy moments to outweigh the crappy ones... Then maybe he will be able to do it again back at your world, even if back there, the chances for an "end" to exist are so low that they almost don't exist. But even if it doesn't, even if his life back there is just a living hell from then on with just years and years of pain until your world ends and maybe then he gets to end with it. At least he would have been happy, you know? At least here, he would have gotten to be happy, to have his girl, to have extra time with his brothers and with pops and to have an end. So even with everything this place is, I would prefer for him to remain here until this place ends, so he can have that even if it will mean nothing for the him back there.
[He coughs, his throat feeling dry after that. He doesn't often talk that much and after saying all that he gets uncomfortable with it. The things this place makes him think and say. He excuses himself the best he can.]
[Voice] I apologize for the tl;dr
[It's really just a foolish idea anyway, so maybe it doesn't matter if it doesn't stay between them.]
You just said you wanted him to be happy in the end. I want that too, but despite how much I hate this place and how much crap it throws at us... I think Luceti is the only place where that can happen. Simply because Luceti is the only place that guarantees us an "end".
I don't know what death is to you, but we can actually die, the problem is that we don't remain dead for long. Soon enough our consciousness returns as well as our bodies and it's no different from having gone to sleep, pain suffered aside. This place isn't our home, our world and whatever memories we make here, whatever feelings we have, whatever thoughts we get... Everything is going to vanish, you know? As soon as we are sent back, everything will leave us, it will vanish and maybe lost forever. For both Marco and me, I think that's the closest we can get to dying. Because even if we will return to our worlds and continue living there, the "us" that were here, the Marco that met and loved you, the one that called me "phoenix-bro", will be gone and there are high chances of him never returning even if he's sent back here.
What I mean to say is that... Here he can meet new people, make new friends and still have a good chance of seeing Ace and pops and everyone else he lost back home. He can be with them again even if it's just for one more day, it will still be an extra day that he could never have anyway. And in that aspect it won't be different than being back home, sure, there it will take longer for people to leave his side and go where he can't reach them. But it will still happen. You could say that this place presents what our social life will be back at our worlds in a fast-forward pace.
I think that if even with that he still manages to be happy, if he manages to be here for years, even if it's trapped and subjected to this crap, one day everyone will be freed, everyone will be sent back home and then he will "die". And if he managed to be happy, to have enough happy moments to outweigh the crappy ones... Then maybe he will be able to do it again back at your world, even if back there, the chances for an "end" to exist are so low that they almost don't exist. But even if it doesn't, even if his life back there is just a living hell from then on with just years and years of pain until your world ends and maybe then he gets to end with it. At least he would have been happy, you know? At least here, he would have gotten to be happy, to have his girl, to have extra time with his brothers and with pops and to have an end. So even with everything this place is, I would prefer for him to remain here until this place ends, so he can have that even if it will mean nothing for the him back there.
[He coughs, his throat feeling dry after that. He doesn't often talk that much and after saying all that he gets uncomfortable with it. The things this place makes him think and say. He excuses himself the best he can.]
I told you it was a very foolish idea.