[... A sigh. He wonders if this is an inappropriate time to smile a little, when some of the stiffness finally leaks from his frame and he opens his eyes. No, this conversation isn't going in any positive places - but then, Sanji knew he would bear some of his soul tonight; he didn't expect it to come without a price and some hardened words.]

No, it'll never be something I want. [A pause, and he shifts in place] It'll just be a shitty burden everyone shares.

[Now he does smile a tiny bit] That's the one thing I had to keep learning here. Most of the damn time I can't do a thing but watch shit go to hell... But just being there helps, sometimes.

[It will never feel like enough, but take what you can.]